Journey

It’s a long long journey
Till I know where I’m supposed to be
It’s a long long journey
And I don’t know if I can believe

When shadows fall and block my eyes
I am lost and know that I must hide
It’s a long long journey
Till I find my way home to you

Many days I’ve spent
Drifting on through empty shores
Wondering what’s my purpose
Wondering how to make me strong

I know I will falter I know I will cry
I know you’ll be standing by my side
It’s a long long journey
And I need to be close to you

Sometimes it feels no one understands
I don’t even know why I do the things I do
When pride builds me up till I can’t see my soul
Will you break down these walls and pull me through?

Cause It’s a long long journey
Till I feel that I am worth the price
You paid for me on calvary
Beneath those stormy skies

When Satan mocks and friends turn to foes
It feel like everything is out to make me lose control
Cause It’s a long long journey
Till I find my way home to you... to you

Amazing Love

God's love is so so amazing!! and He is so real to me!

For the past 1 - 2 weeks, i juz felt that God is juz right beside me, listening to me, and telling me wat i should do. haha, he is so real that i was quite shocked and did not know exactly how i should respond to him. at times, he prompted me to do something, but i juz tried to delay or not do it due to the lack of courage, afraid of awkwardness, and thinking too much as to how others will think. but sometimes the prompting is juz so strong that it's a must for me to do it, but i really dunno how to, so i juz can pray to god to open the doors and lead me thru. and in the end, things juz turn out to be so perfect, that i was wondering why should i drag so long to do something! haha.

guess god is training me to be more sensitive to him. learning how to listen and obey him, differentiating wat is from him, and building up my courage to juz do the right thing. :) and it's when u complete all the things god wants u to do, then u will be able to see the most perfect picture, and feel the real peace and joy from the bottom of ur heart!

anyway, i think there is still something i have to do, but have not done it yet. i still owe someone (u know who u are) a prayer. please wait for a little while more ok? i will do it soon! trust me! hahaha, the prompting is still there, and god is waiting for me to do it! haha, well.. i will pray for more courage and the opportunity to do it! :)

He Listens and Answers

i really thank god for today. there's something which god prompted me to do for quite a long time, but i do not have the courage to do it.. until today! well, and things aren't as bad as wat i thought it might be.. and this is a reminder to me. dun always let my thoughts stop me from doing something god wants me to do.

well, i'm really very happy today. throughout the day, i thought of wat had happen today and the past few days, and i really give thanks to him for all that he had done for me. it just shows me how much he loves me and he listens to wat i told him. i might be complaining, grumbling or even doubting him, but he still shows me that he's there for me. :)

juz as i thought of doing things my own ways, he stops me by interrupting what i had firmly decided to do. and it juz seem like he is playing a joke on me. but well deep down in my heart, i know he is not playing a joke on me, but rather he is telling me that this is not the right way to do things. in a week, it happened quite a few times.. opps.. haha.. i'm juz being too rebellious.. :p

anyway, really thank god for today. he answered many of my prayers! :)