Child, I'm Always With You

thoughts.. postive thoughts? negative thoughts? many thoughts.. really many thoughts in mind recently.. it's very tiring! really very tired! :(

"I'm always with you!" - this is what God has been telling me very clearly recently..

though i tried to run away from Him, hide from Him, be rebellious and not listen to what He tells me.. He is still always there for me, listening to me, holding on to me, and loves me just as much.. even if it's things that i prayed and treated as a passing remark after praying, he still listened and answered them.

i doubted Him.. i don't really believe that He has heard all that i've told him. but yesterday during prayer meet, He told me clearly thru Rev Fucai that He heard my prayers! yes, He heard my prayers!!! :) anyway, there's alot more things i've received, and definitely have made quite a great impact to me. but well, i still need time to accept and digest them.. so, i'll have to continue praying and seek Him. :)

running away and hiding is definitely not the best way to solve any problems. it will make one feel more tired and helpless. the more i wanted to run away from serving, the more servings i got... and no matter how i wanted to siam, go one big round, it still comes back to me. haha, what to do? nothing but just obey Him and submit completely to Him!

"Be strong and courageous. Do not be terrified; do not be discouraged, for the LORD your God will be with you wherever you go" - Joshua 1:9