你的最爱 - 赞美之泉

在你光中，带着盼望
你领我出黑暗入光明
张开双臂，带我回家
我属于你，是你的最爱

天父拥抱我
你爱的双臂使我再一次
成为爱中的孩子
当你拥抱我
我可以自由，活出你旨意
天父我永远属你，你的最爱

A child of light, a child of hope.
Adopted from darkness into life.
With open arms, You welcome home.
I am your child, You call me as your own.

Father, hold me, in your arms of love
Where I'm safe to be, a litte child who's made for love.
When you hold me, I am free to be
Who I'm meant to be.
Father, I'm your child, your own, your beloved.

Reassurance

thank God for assuring me once again that He's there for me! He listens and had heard my prayers! :)

i was feeling super demoralized and upset when i was travelling to church for prayer meet after my project meeting. my friend and i spent a whole afternoon trying to figure out how we are going to implement our program, but we totally got no idea! so we went to seek our tutor for help, and manage to clarify some doubts and had a better concept of how the program should work. and we continue trying out again, but the program just dun work! and we got more n more demoralize, and even thought of juz giving up this project! i asked God "why?, why is it that we cant get our project done? why arent You helping me?". even though i was questioning God, deep down in my heart i felt a sense of peace, knowing that this project will be completed somehow. but i still feel very sad. :(

God reminded me during prayer meet, it's a test on faith! how He used to bring me through all my programming projects, He will do the same for this project, and for everything! and He reminded me of what i received this morning on the mrt. normally when we're on train we dun really hold on to the poles but rather we will try to balance ourselves. but when balancing by ourselves, we tend to use much more strength to keep our balance. sometimes we juz can't stand firm and eventually we still have to hold on to the pole. and when we hold on to the pole, we actually dun really need much strength and energy to keep our balance. God is just like the pole. if we hold on to Him, we will not fall or lose our balance. and we are able to stand firm no matter how tough the journey is. all we have to do is to hold on to Him, and everything will be alright! :)

as i was travelling to school, i prayed. i was having many thoughts, many uncertainties, but i just told God that i hope to get a hug from Him. all i want is just a hug filled with encouragement and love from Him and it'll be enough. i told Him that i hope to get a hug tonight during prayer meet! even though i wasnt sure if i will get it, i kept telling Him, Lord, just a hug from you, and it's enough! let me feel your hug tonight! :) and He heard what i said. almost throughout the prayer meet, the emphasis is on receiving hug from God and God's love! and that's not all! juz now as i was sharing with huilin, she told me, she prayed for me. her prayer is, "God, hug her tighter!!". i was really surprised when she told me that! :)

i cried again during the song (阿爸天父). actually since sunday, i'm wondering if we will sing this song again during prayer meet. somehow i just feel that we will. and i juz got the feeling that i will cry again if this song is to be sang in prayer meet. indeed, i cried. but i felt God's love and joy filling me after crying! :)

God didnt stop working after prayer meet. i was chatting with chuan on msn, sharing with her about my project thing. and she said this prayer for me on msn, "i pray for Daddy to bring people to help you and to let u understand the codes and able to come out with the correct codes for the program to work!". and i said amen! God listens to it! even it's juz a short prayer made through msn!

before that i was chatting with another fren asking if he did the progam before. he said he did before but is using another programming language. but shortly after chuan said the prayer, this friend of mine msn me "u wan i try to help u"! i was shocked! and that's not all! i started doing my project again bit by bit, searching for suitable codes and things juz get working bit by bit! and the most interesting thing is i actually tried out some thing in school and it juz don't work! but i tried doing the same thing again and it worked perfectly! i was really amazed by God! :)

what can i do? but to THANK YOU! thank You for tonight's prayer meet. thank You for reassuring me, and thank You for overwhelming me with Your love! btw, this is what i told God during prayer meet, let me be overwhelm by Your love! :)

God's Reminder

thank God for sustaining me throughout the past few weeks and reminding me each day that His grace is sufficient for me! :)

as workload gets heavier with more projects, assignments and tests coming up, i started to feel stress and afraid that i cant cope. i started to think of getting away from all things and juz wanted to spend all my time to finish my work. but the more i wan to get away from things, the more things i got! anyway, this kind of things happen most of the time. the more u dun want, the more u get it!

so when i was on my way to school one day, god reminded me through the song 祷告 that He will provide me the strength i need each day and His grace is sufficient for me! from that day till now, i'm still being reminded of the same thing EVERY DAY, especially when i thought of the tons of things i have to do and not having enough time to complete! :)

God touched my heart during worship today. juz at the starting first few lines of the new song (阿爸天父 by 赞美之泉), tears filled by eyes. when it came to this line of the chorus (打开心门，领受你大爱) i started crying! and i just cant stop crying until the next song! i feel God's presence and know that He is working in me! :)

if you had read my post previously, you will know that i googled "jesus i'm afraid" before. God spoke to me clearly today. He reminded me once again tt He will not leave me nor forsake me! and NOT TO BE AFRAID! yes! He knows what i'm thinking about, and what i really need! :)

though my travelling time to school and back home is long, but honestly i enjoyed it! becoz i enjoyed my conversations with God! :) the more i talk to Him, the more secured i feel. i know i'm growing up in Him, and my faith is growing! and there is nothing i need to be afraid of! All things are possible in Him! :)

祷告 - 讚美之泉

祷告 因为我渺小
祷告 因为我知道我需要
明瞭 你心意对我重要

祷告 已假装不了
祷告 因为你的爱我需要
你关怀 我走过的你都明白

有些事我只想要对你说
因你比任何人都爱我
痛苦从眼中流下
我知道你为我擦

在早晨我也要来对你说
主耶稣今天我为你活
所需要的力量你天天赐给我
你恩典够我用