22nd Birthday

i prayed to god to let this day of mine be a special day to me.. i got no idea how my day would be, but juz got a feeling that god will have a special gift for me! :p

thank god for giving me a wonderful gift today! :) the gift god gave me is his love for me.. :) god reminded me how much he loves me, and showed me how much he loves me.. :)

actually i dun have any plans and i tot it might be that god wants me to have a good rest at home, and not always running out.. haha.. and i told god that if this is the case, then so be it ba.. though i hope that it won't be such a boring birthday..

god listens to my prayers.. he did not gave me a boring birthday.. god started off my day with receiving smses from many people such as my sec sch frenz, church frenz, colleagues, etc..

in the afternoon, went to meet angie, esther, and sarah at ps.. after that, we met chuan and deren for dinner at blk 3.. and i dunno why and how come, they started singing birthday song at the coffeeshop.. haha.. and after prayer meet, birthday song was sang once again, but this time round with many more people around! haha, i was kind of shocked and abit lost, dunno how to react.. but i really felt very blessed at that moment.. thanks alot guys! i'm really very happy and glad to know that i have many of you brothers and sisters by my side! :)

when i reached home, i got a surprise.. my dad actually bought a cake for me.. he even cook vermicelli (mian xian) with an egg for me! this is the first time i eat vermicelli with egg during my birthday after so many years of birthday! actually i was really quite touched and lost of words when i opened the door, and saw the house was in total darkness with a lighted candle on the cake on the dining table.. :)

i really thank god for today! :) thanks to all for your birthday wishes and blessings, and celebrating my birthday for me! i really thank god for all of you and it's all of you who made this day really special! i really felt blessed knowing that there are so many of you by my side who cares and loves me.. :)

God Never Fails

i'm feeling really tired these few days.. but was quite happy.. :)

God is good all the time! no matter how tired or how unhappy i am, he never fails to bring joy to me with tiny little stuffs.. :)

thank god i got back in touch with my primary school friend after 8 years!! she was one of my very good friends during my primary school days.. found her on facebook and we chatted on msn, and few days later, we happen to see each other when i was on my way to meet my friend for lunch.. all i can say is, it's god's timing! coz on that day i was hesitating if i should go out to meet my fren for lunch.. felt like staying at home, but somehow thoughts of going out was always in my mind.. so i decided to go meet my fren since it has been quite some time we last met..

when i saw my pri sch fren, i was quite afraid that there will be awkwardness between us.. thank god, there wasn't any.. we chatted as though we had been in contact all along.. and to my surprise, her mum still remembered me!! :)

thank god for putting many good and encouraging friends around me! when i need help, need someone to talk to, god never fails to provide one for me.. though at times, when i really wanted to find someone, there is no one, i know god wanted me to turn back to him.. and when i turn back to him, he comforted me, and filled me with his peace and joy.. :) it's tough at times, but he is my strength, and he wun give me things i cant bear!

dear lord, thank you for all the good works u had done for me.. though i might feel lonely at times, but i know i am not alone, coz u are always by my side.. i might feel that no one loves or cares about me, but i know u loved me for who i am, and you care for me.. :) lord, teach me to love and accept myself for who i am..

生命过客

was watching tv and happen to hear this song.. and it got stuck in my head.. especially this phrase "一生要失败几回 才知道成功的意义"..



i juz cant really understand myself these few days.. my mind seems to be full of stuffs, and yet all things seem to be very blur.. there are many things which does make me happy, but yet i juz cant really be happy.. it's really very tiring.. i wonder if i can still hold on for how long.. :(

Lord, please help me find the real peace and joy in you!

Be Joyful

to be joyful, despite of everything bothering u, u need to know that everything is in God's hands.. tt's wat chuan told me.. yup, I agree! :)

to have peace and joy in us, we must always remember that no matter what happens, be it good or bad, god is in control of everything.. yes, everything! No matter big or small.. even the smallest things he is in control too.. :)

well, when someone is not in a good mood, it does affect the people around not feel good too.. and it's the same thing when someone is feeling joyful.. it does spread the joy to others too.. :) therefore most of the times, i will choose to crap and joke around when i'm with people.. at least it helps to make people around me happy.. :) though at times i might not be feeling very good, but if people around me are happy, i think it might help me to be more happy too.. :)

anyway, even when i dun feel good, God is still very good to me! even though i might think that the whole world don't seem to understand me, but i know God understands me.. He knows us much better than we know ourselves.. i truly believe that God has the best plans for us, and He has the most perfect timing for everything! :) even when we are in sufferings, we still have to give thanks for it.. give thanks in all circumstances, for everything is within God's control! :)